DREAMS AS I AWAKE:
Three times this week I have woken up to voices from or related to High Fidelity in my head.
– Barry singing “Let’s Get it On.”
– Laura whining about how Rob doesn’t make plans for the future.
– Rob listing the 5 best ways of spotting a psychopath.
I wish I were kidding.
BRIEF PERSONAL HISTORY:
I don’t remember my dreams very frequently, except when I am sick. Occasionally I will remember a little fragment of a dream that I had right when I wake up, usually just a couple of words or a brief image. One summer, about five years ago, there was a period of about two months where I woke up to the same phrase almost every morning. It was a line from a play, as delivered by a personal enemy of mine from that time. So I suppose I have a limited history of dreaming about things I am obsessively angry at and/or obsessed with, in the moments before waking. I don’t know what the implications of this are.
THE FIRST DREAM:
The first of these incidents happened about a week ago. It had been very hot out, and I didn’t have a fan or AC in my room, so I spent a good portion of the night tossing and turning. In the last several hours before I had to get up, I would drift in and out of consciousness while the last few lines of “Let’s Get it On,” as sung by Barry repeated in my head. I tried to just ignore them, but they kept repeating over and over, as I drifted to sleep and back again.
It was not pleasant.
THE SECOND DREAM:
A few nights later, under similar circumstances (hot night, early morning), I awoke to a few lines from that scene around the half-hour mark in which Laura is trying to explain to Rob what a loser he is. The exact line was: “At least you used to talk about the future, now you don’t even do that.” And if I am not mistaken, it was accompanied by her making this face:
The best part of waking up, is not waking up to this.
I am not sure if the particular line she was saying is relevant to me. Perhaps my subconscious is telling me to get a better job? I KNOW THAT ALREADY, SUBCONSCIOUS. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. At least, don’t tell me things as Laura. I can’t stand her.
IF I’M GOING TO HAVE NIGHTMARES, SO ARE YOU.
THE THIRD DREAM:
A few days after the Laura dream (which really was just a short clip from the movie, with no changes or repetition), I was again waking up after a hot unpleasant night, when I started hearing Rob making a list. A list of the top five ways to spot a psychopath. It may be worth noting that I am in the middle of a book about psychopaths, people with no empathy, shallow emotions, and little in the way of conscience, who are out to swindle, kill, and otherwise abuse you. I shouldn’t have to tell you, but this is not a list that Rob makes in the movie. If it were, the movie might gain a point or two in my estimation. In any event, I cannot remember what Rob’s tips for spotting psychopaths were. So while disturbing, this dream was not even helpful.
“If they are stabbing you to death, while not really giving a shit, they might be a psychopath.”
WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN?
I have no clue. Evidently the movie is bothering me on a subconscious level to such a degree that it is showing up, repeatedly in my dreams. But why now? Have I just seen it one too many times? Is the heat getting to me? If I were to get an AC, would this not happen any more? Was I starting to get sick? I’m not some kind of dream scientist. All I know is I don’t like the looks of it.
Last night, immediately after writing this article, I had a repeat of dream one. Except this time it was only the line “Do you know how sweet and wonderful life can be?” over and over and over. Right before I woke up. This needs to stop.