It has been a little over three months since we started this… endurance test of cinematic fortitude, and it has been rough. After the first month, I talked about how I was feeling burned out and how I’m going to become a depressed mopey piece of shit due to the time of year and the reminder of a relationship passed. Good news: I was not that depressed. Bad news: month two was the beginning of me putting off watching my movie till the end of the week. I have noticed that more and more I am watching my movie on Fridays, and mostly on Saturdays. This last week marks what I think is my 5th Saturday viewing in a row. There is no speculation on why this is, I just don’t really want to watch this movie. The smart thing to do would be to watch Truman on a Saturday, then on the Sunday right after it. This would maximize the days off I would get in between viewings. This would be the smart thing to do. Let’s just say I am not the sharpest bulb in the tool shed.

February

I noticed that during the second month (February) of this, I was watching a lot of sci-fi movies and shows. I watched all the way through Farscape (88 hours of shows plus a miniseries) and all of Firefly. I also watched through the original theatrical release of the Star Wars trilogy. I was very much in an escapist mood. I was also more game for watching The Next Generation with Bill and John. A group of us are trying to watch all of Star Trek, from the original series through to Enterprise, in the order of their air dates. It is no small feat, and I think it is very cool.

March

During the third month (March) I was feeling sort of awkward. I was not being reminded of Truman in the least. I did not think about any of the music, quotes, themes or… well anything about the movie, unless I was watching it. Bill has tons and tons and tons of results from Top GunI felt like I was not really embracing the experiment like I should be. Then I noticed that I was thinking about this project a lot. I seem to find myself thinking about the other three movies randomly over mine. I have seen a lot of advertisements and toys that remind me of Top Gun and even Spider-Man 3High Fidelity is one of my favorite movies, and I have found myself watching that at least once a month since January. I think that I find Truman so bland in comparison with the other three that they override the thought processes of my mind. I hang out with and talk to everyone involved in Cinema 52 often enough, so I guess I can not help but think about all of our movies.

Now

So far in April, even though it has only been a week, I have been asked a lot why I am watching Truman. Why am I not watching something that might be easier to get through for an entire year? I have thought about it, and wonder if I am just not explaining myself well enough to the people I am talking to. I am watching a movie that I was indifferent to up till this whole crazy year started. I don’t think I had ever seen this movie until this year. I did not know what I was in for, really. I have always thought of this as an endurance test. This is almost like one of those hyper-athletic types doing an Iron Man marathon, only, you know, with movies. If I was watching say, Killer Klowns from Outer Space, I think it would be just as tough to endure. The quality of the movie is not the tough part for me. Hearing the same lines at least 52 times is the part that is hard. That all being said, these past couple days (yesterday and today) I have actually been somewhat excited to be partaking in the experiment again. I don’t know what it is exactly that has gotten me feeling re-interested, but I am. Maybe it is the reminder that Manos: The Hands of Fate was not able to break me, so Jim Carrey will not.