I just spent half an hour recounting all my results posts. And they revealed a terrible secret.

It’s only Week #19.

I thought it was Week #20. I really did. I’m only one week off… but it mattered so much.

Here’s how Tony Scott put my thoughts in a chokehold this week.

This nineteenth week.

May 6, 2012
7:07pm EST – Somebody at work used the word “clear.” Thought of “Ice, fire or clear.”

7:15pm EST – A weird flashback cluster of “Mighty Wings,” Iceman, and “call the ball” hit in the span of a few seconds.

May 7, 2012
12:55pm EST – “You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feelin'” stuck in head after watching my beatbox vid.

3:00pm EST – In a happy mood. YLTLF stuck in head.

3:17pm EST - YTLF has been phasing in and out since 3. Been humming it. Hearing lyrics. Ridiculous.

4:13pm EST - Little pieces of YLTLF consistently swirling into my thoughts since 3.

4:45pm EST – I have woven YLTLF into the fabric of my thoughts. It perfectly conveys the blend of happiness and sadness that I’m feeling. I don’t want to talk about it. I have to talk about it, don’t I? I knew this would happen.

Here’s a picture of Elisha Cuthbert. Forget what I was talking about.

5:16pm EST – YLTLF string section stuck in head.

5:47pm EST – YLTLF string section.

11:45pm EST – Made a really complicated stupid metaphor about relationships being like leaving your wingman and then shooting at him. Blah, Top Gun.

May 8, 2012
12:10am EST - Stroked lip like Viper during relationship argument. Thought of Viper.

8:29am EST - “Top Gun Anthem” stuck in head waking up.

9:01am EST - Thought of Becca‘s shyness again and heard Viper say “confidence problem” yet again.

Doesn’t she make you want to stroke your lip?

1:55pm EST – Thought of my high school drama teacher mocking the terrible teenage dialogue in The Goonies. Thought of “Buttnose!” being shouted in the locker room scene in Top Gun.

11:13pm EST – Heard “clear” at work and heard “Ice, fire or clear” again.

May 9, 2012
8:00ish in the morning EST - Woke up, tried to think of a movie to watch for a date. Thought Top Gun, didn’t think that counted as a result, brain looped “listening to the radio” 10 times to punish me.

May 10, 2012
10:24pm EST – Watching Star Trek: The Next Generation, “Data’s Day.” Data said “the need for friendship.” Thought of “the need for speed.”

“Captain, I am experiencing a severe lack of velocity.”

May 11, 2012
2:57pm EST – Stupid “into the night” song from the bar scene stuck in head. [It’s “Hot Summer Nights” by Miami Sound Machine.]

May 12, 2012
12:33am EST - “Lead Me On” stuck in head right before falling asleep.

9:02am EST - LMO stuck in head immediately after waking up, probably trying to remind me to put the last entry in my notebook.

11:05am EST – LMO stuck in head while writing shopping list.

12:52pm EST - Shopping. Thought song in store was in Top Gun. Wasn’t. Got some song from Top Gun stuck in head anyway. Don’t know what it is. “Feelin’ inside?” Some hair ballad shit. [I believe it’s “Heaven in Your Eyes” by Loverboy.]

–END OF NOTES–

So, yeah… kind of an emotional week. And I’ve learned that when I’m getting emotional, the Top Gun mental blocks fall apart. Which hilariously leads to a dramatic Bill suddenly thinking of Tom Skerritt and cutting his argument short to scribble in a notebook. Usually swearing and saying, “We’re not done here yet!”

Anyway, the stuff I didn’t want to talk about will mostly stay that way. Becca and I are sort of… courting someone. Stay tuned. It’s a complicated but wonderful time.

Hey, how about my goofy brain? I really did fall asleep thinking of “Lead Me On,” but was way too tired to dig out the notebook. So I told myself not to forget over and over again, and sure enough, I woke up hearing the song. I completely forgot to jot down the result from last night, but the song was there. And it triggered an action.

So… neat.